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 | | Titel: | Perfect | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-12-29 01:41:15 | | Teaser: | It wasn't perfect
but i didn't mind
because it was
love |
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| | Titel: | Understand | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-12-29 01:35:15 | | Teaser: | And in the end it didn't matter that they didn't know what to say
i wasn't expecting solutions or feedback
i didn't' expect for them to know what to say
it was just so silent
in that short momen ... |
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 | | Titel: | Untitled | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-11-18 15:52:29 | | Teaser: | It's the kind of contact that costs something. there's nothing unconditional about it. there's no infinite ocean of love that's beating in the core of a heart owned by someone's whose eyes shine wit ... |
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| | Titel: | Untitled | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-11-17 01:28:27 | | Teaser: | Sometimes i think i'm relieved that it turned out this way. i get this painful burning ache in my chest when i think like that but really was it the best choice? did i make the best choice? did i do ... |
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| | Titel: | Untitled | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-11-12 00:30:14 | | Teaser: | Where would one even start? you could start by saying that there's nothing special about her. about her story. that she's just one out of millions- billions fighting to stay alive in these times. mo ... |
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| | Titel: | Untitled | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-10-18 02:06:32 | | Teaser: | It was the sounds filling my head. it was a question of how words could turn into this. it was me wondering about how something so different could merge together and how you would never be able to t ... |
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| | Titel: | Untitled | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-09-29 23:39:17 | | Teaser: | Fine so maybe i don't know what to say. maybe i'm scared of being pressured by some stupid rules that don't even exist because people are who they are and i'm not supposed to be who i might be. mayb ... |
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| | Titel: | Flawless | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-09-29 23:13:10 | | Teaser: | Was it on purpose?
i can still feel the faint heat of your lips (smoke is rolling
like fog over the hills)
oxygen is pushing its way into my lungs
did you mean to do it? (every inch of my bo ... |
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| | Titel: | Justice | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-09-23 19:30:21 | | Teaser: | Fuck justice
it doesn't exist |
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| | Titel: | Untitled | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-09-18 22:43:50 | | Teaser: | It could have been hurried. a decision made far too quickly to please her. to reassure myself that i wasn't falling into a trap of normality. of being as thoroughly boring as everyone else around me ... |
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| | Titel: | Untitled | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-09-17 21:37:06 | | Teaser: | I don't know why she did it. maybe it was because she hated me or maybe she just hated herself. who the hell even knows. i don't remember much of what happened; it might have been because it was dur ... |
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| | Titel: | Cancer | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-07-11 06:29:26 | | Teaser: | With lungs trying to breathe
and a mind trying to stop
a heart staggering along the edge
a string bound to the highest of mountains
going deep into the ocean
waiting for fear to plunge into the ... |
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| | Titel: | Deaf | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-07-11 06:18:48 | | Teaser: | I think you would have to say that
the sound of nothing is pretty damn loud
in the end
feeling two degrees colder than most
because i lack the feeling of someone being there
without the sensati ... |
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| | Titel: | Ashes | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-05-09 15:46:16 | | Teaser: | Burn me to the ground
wash my ashes away
but i'm here to stay |
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| | Titel: | Somewhere around here | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-04-19 22:57:36 | | Teaser: | Somewhere between smiles and wrinkles
in the veins of age
playing with our youthful innocence
somewhere around here
bumping into a person
calling it fate
because love bloomed like a flower
... |
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| | Titel: | Monsters | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-04-13 04:14:09 | | Teaser: | What we did
it wasn't beautiful but
it doesn't make us
monsters |
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| | Titel: | I forgot | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-04-11 05:33:23 | | Teaser: | I forgot it all
the promises i made
the sincerity they held
i couldn't remember
the place we were supposed to meet
and it's getting increasingly harder
to pick your face from the crowd
we may ... |
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| | Titel: | Just fine | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-04-11 05:14:11 | | Teaser: | I'm not okay
and that's not alright
so don't pretend
that everything's just fine |
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| | Titel: | Morning light | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-28 06:21:00 | | Teaser: | Green eyes and red lips
breathless words
and wandering fingers
nights that just seem too short
dreams of a future
that would be sacrificed
just for a moment of mindless pleasure
and forgotten ... |
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| | Titel: | Language of numbness | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-26 04:35:01 | | Teaser: | I long to learn to accept
that things might get better
and we won't be stuck in an illness
that we convince ourselves is art
because we lack the courage to understand
that freedom is a rarity
... |
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| | Titel: | Art | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-12 15:51:28 | | Teaser: | The paint splattered
on my heart
makes me regret that i pretended
the blood i've spilled
was art and not destruction
of a beautiful masterpiece |
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| | Titel: | No remorse | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-12 15:49:10 | | Teaser: | I can't go back
and i can't make myself regret
the moments i missed
and the things i didn't feel
i can't make myself feel guilty
about not loving you
and just letting go
instead of holding ... |
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| | Titel: | The right | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-12 15:31:05 | | Teaser: | Now we have the right
to become pregnant when we want
and to ignore
the fail safe
put in our bodies to prevent
still unborn children from getting hurt
and now we have also gained the right
to ... |
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| | Titel: | Smile | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-10 12:55:59 | | Teaser: | Nothing lasts forever
and neither does your smile
but as long as you're able
to find it again
for now is just fine |
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| | Titel: | Tired heart | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-09 23:52:30 | | Teaser: | I would rather just not feel
so please just for a moment
let my tired heart rest
because it can't handle beating
for much longer |
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| | Titel: | Shadow | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-09 23:42:32 | | Teaser: | Tonight
lights won't lead me home
but i will instead stray
far away
from the bright city
and its bustling nightlife
to wander around
in the seemingly never ending darkness
wondering why the ... |
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| | Titel: | Under control | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-08 00:52:11 | | Teaser: | And yet i can't just lose control
not that i don't want
to just let go
and lose my mind
in the air that we would share
but i feel so afraid
because my fears are coming crashing dow ... |
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| | Titel: | Ophelia - one // regret | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-06 20:18:04 | | Teaser: | One // regret
[thief: amy bitterman]
[symptom: fear]
[date: february twenty-sixth two thousand and ten]
[time: 03.47 pm]
[location: amy bitterman's house; front porch]
ophelia loses the fi ... |
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| | Titel: | Truthfully | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-05 00:06:30 | | Teaser: | I would
i could
i can't
regret
the world doesn't see me
like that
forgive
that i forgot
how to feel guilty
for the things i've done
and the bridges
i've burned
i'd hate to see
you ... |
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| | Titel: | Regret | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-04 23:30:15 | | Teaser: | I broke your heart
because i didn't have a choice
but in spite of this
please do me one last favor;
regret it enough for the both of us |
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| | Titel: | Forgotten | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-03-03 00:28:01 | | Teaser: | I'm so afraid
because what if
after so long
it's all just pretend and she
doesn't know
how to love me
anymore
what if after so long
the moments
just doesn't mean
anything at all
and the ... |
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| | Titel: | Here | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-25 01:32:35 | | Teaser: | And each time i heard
about the sun and the moon
the lovers forever lost alone
i felt so guilty because i
had her here
with me
all this time and yet
i didn't tell her
that i never wanted
he ... |
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| | Titel: | Glimpse | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-21 19:27:29 | | Teaser: | A glimpse
of someone else's memories
written on a piece
of paper |
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| | Titel: | Walls | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-20 22:10:29 | | Teaser: | And we watch in terror
as the walls we built
and tore down
rise again |
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| | Titel: | Shades of blue | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-17 21:54:43 | | Teaser: | She was so many shades
of blue
that she should have been
stolen away from me
with the tide
a long time ago |
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| | Titel: | Regret | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-17 21:53:14 | | Teaser: | I couldn't regret it
even if i wanted to
i couldn't |
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| | Titel: | Lies | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-17 20:31:22 | | Teaser: | And believe me
i'm sorry
but it doesn't matter
that i can't breathe
because i don't have to speak
to lie
the words
will still be able
to roll off my tongue
with far too much ease |
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| | Titel: | Her | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-15 16:45:38 | | Teaser: | It's been so long
since you felt warm
and you can't quite remember
the last time you didn't feel lonely
and the music that plays
isn't enough to kill your thoughts
and even the sun
doesn't se ... |
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| | Titel: | Ruined | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-08 17:27:31 | | Teaser: | And she ruined his drawing
by spilling paint
all over it
and yet it was his most
prized possession |
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| | Titel: | Picture | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-03 10:51:58 | | Teaser: | I still have the picture
i saved it
i held onto it all these years
because i knew it was important
your only proof that he ever existed
and i held onto it
because i knew that someday
someday ... |
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| | Titel: | Not crazy | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-02-03 10:18:41 | | Teaser: | Tell me i'm not crazy
hold me
promise me
break me
but please tell me
good god tell me i'm not insane
the colors of madness
paint the inside of my mind
but tell me i'm not crazy
make me a ... |
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| | Titel: | In her mind | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2016-01-20 03:16:58 | | Teaser: | And her pulse will be racing
along with her love
as all she ever wanted
plays in her mind |
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| | Titel: | Light | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-29 09:01:26 | | Teaser: | The fire breaks
and the nights becomes dark
once again
the embers are crushed
and her hands are stained
a glow is burning
turning her blood white
a heart is lost
but still keeps eating
her ... |
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| | Titel: | I could | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-28 07:27:38 | | Teaser: | I could spent years just staring at her
i could spent months just touching her
i could spent a lifetime trying to convince myself that she is really there
and i could spent an eternity tryi ... |
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| | Titel: | All | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-28 07:23:54 | | Teaser: | I would give her my life
all of my world
the whole of my being
and still she would be broken
i could learn to bring back the ones we lost
and heal the ones we broke
but i still wol ... |
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| | Titel: | In the dark | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-28 07:19:03 | | Teaser: | In the dark i can almost convince myself
hidden away and curled up
hiding from myself and hiding from the world
i manage to forget
for a fleeting moment i'm no longer blinded
by memor ... |
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| | Titel: | Tomorrow come | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-10 07:09:02 | | Teaser: | Tomorrow come
my world will be crumbling
but my heart will still be beating
tomorrow come
my life will be falling apart
but my mind will still be sane
tomorrow come
my house will be l ... |
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| | Titel: | Lonely kingdom | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-10 03:01:43 | | Teaser: | I'm falling on y knees
ink droplets spilling from my eyes
i'm going back to the nothingness
heaven is not for me for i am a sinner
hell don't want me because i am a saint
and the worl ... |
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| | Titel: | Gloriously alive | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-05 03:16:49 | | Teaser: | Heart beating at the speed of light
pulse racing
the wind is howling
as i fall through the air
the sea is raging
as i fall straight into the storm
my breathing is fast
and my skin is on fire
... |
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| | Titel: | Dawn | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-03 19:30:09 | | Teaser: | As dawn awakes
and the streetlights flicker
i can still imagine her soft lips
as darkness breaks
and the stars go to rest for another day
i can still feel the shadow of her touch
as the ea ... |
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| | Titel: | Colorblind | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-12-02 11:11:54 | | Teaser: | Imagine it all in black and white
imagine having never seen a color
imagine being colorblind
and then imagine her
her touch
her words
the tip of her fingers as they brush across your skin
h ... |
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| | Titel: | The truth | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-29 05:14:41 | | Teaser: | Black
vision clouded
mouth covered
ears bleeding
the words pour from their lips
and the tears from their eyes
though lies may echo through the air
their hearts beats
and their veins bl ... |
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| | Titel: | Life is a battle | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 20:20:59 | | Teaser: | Shaky hands
and tear filled eyes
heavy breathing
and a broken heart
left behind
and left alone
left broken and bend
the end of an era
and the beginning of a new one
even with blood staining ... |
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| | Titel: | Demons | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 20:17:52 | | Teaser: | Strings wrapped around her neck
choking her slowly
as she tries to escape
chains on her arms
her feet bound to the wall
metal burning her skin
and leaving scars behind
so she will never forge ... |
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| | Titel: | This life | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 20:13:54 | | Teaser: | So many memories
so little time
falling balls of light
flying into the sky
cries of a woman
who lost her child
and enemies retreating
as the battlefields are stained red
door ... |
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| | Titel: | Stained | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 20:08:51 | | Teaser: | A pencil gliding across paper
leaving behind empty
and meaningless words
sentences that doesn't matter
and stories that doesn't need to be told
a blank piece of paper
the white col ... |
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| | Titel: | Choices | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 19:58:06 | | Teaser: | The golden sun
or the bright stars
the grey moon
or the shining planets
infinity space
more than enough
to ensure loneliness forever
or
molten beauty
more than enough
to make everyth ... |
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| | Titel: | Blood stained hands | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 05:57:35 | | Teaser: | At the young age of eleven
her hands were stained with blood
she had already slain her first enemy
her first demon
little did she know though
that this
this one kill
was only the beginning of ... |
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| | Titel: | Her | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 03:32:00 | | Teaser: | Golden beauty
and locks of silvery hair
the moon is in her glare
and the sun is in her smile
the stars line her heart
and life fills her veins
eyes like the forest
lined with th ... |
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| | Titel: | Alive | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 03:08:57 | | Teaser: | Highlight
the parts
the pieces
of me
the ones you do not despise
the ones that aren't broken
the ones that are still whole
still perfect
still forgiving
whisper to me
t ... |
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| | Titel: | Love | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-28 02:59:39 | | Teaser: | Love
a madness that can not be chosen
the only kind of insanity
that mankind would willingly
lose everything for
it is given
something you long for
more tempting
then the deepest desire
mor ... |
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| | Titel: | Imperfect | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-16 14:03:15 | | Teaser: | Undecided
is the love
that rushed through her veins
confusion and desperation
filled her mind
and thoughts and questions
kept her from finding rest
in the beating heart
of th ... |
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| | Titel: | Addiction | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-16 13:51:47 | | Teaser: | When reward
becomes addiction
and love
is not something needed
but something
impossible to go on without
and you become willing
to lose it all
just to feel your heart
race with excitement
... |
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| | Titel: | In the light of day | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-11 04:23:56 | | Teaser: | With electricity coursing through her veins
and her heart beating
at the speed of light
she would easily get lost
in the pleasurable feeling
of a night spend together
but she would ... |
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| | Titel: | Loveless lover | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-11 04:06:58 | | Teaser: | It was said that she fell in love
and she believed it
she believed her lust and desire
was love
and for years she was in a relationship
with a lover
that she did not really love
... |
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| | Titel: | Home | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-07 15:00:26 | | Teaser: | But in that second
when the rain pours
and soaks your clothes
and you lose your breath
even though you aren't choking
and you aren't falling
but flying
you know
that nothing else matter
bec ... |
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| | Titel: | Forget | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-07 14:59:05 | | Teaser: | Once she tried to drown
in the rain
and forget all this hurt
once she tried to choke
on nothing but thin air
and forget all this pain
once she tried to jump
straight into the sea
and for ... |
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| | Titel: | Who i am | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-11-05 04:17:13 | | Teaser: | Change my mind
change my fate
save my soul
but break my will
spend my love
and take my life
leave me in pieces
and leave me behind
misuse my trust
and force my hand
end ... |
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| | Titel: | Finally free | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-10-06 05:07:13 | | Teaser: | Glossy eyes
filled with tears
that go unnoticed
a light smile
taking place
on her soft lips
her skin is pale
and covered with painful memories
hidden underneath
the fabric
... |
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| | Titel: | Here my world resides | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-10-06 04:40:03 | | Teaser: | In the midst of all of this
the swirl of emotions
the confusion
and desperation
the longing for something that isn't there
the need to just be
instead of living
there was a beat ... |
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| | Titel: | Raining colors | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-10-06 01:40:42 | | Teaser: | It's raining gold
and shooting stars
it's raining red
and bleeding hearts
it's raining green
and beautiful times
it's raining blue
and lonely nights
and bright lights
brin ... |
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| | Titel: | Before the rain | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-09-15 18:35:46 | | Teaser: | Listen to the rain
the soft patter
of falling drops
and liquid
slowly trailing down the glass pane
and mark my words
when i tell you
that your reflection
in the dark glass
... |
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| | Titel: | A new beginning | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-09-15 01:04:28 | | Teaser: | It's a new chance
a way to change history
to change the future
it is a new beginning |
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| | Titel: | Her | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-09-15 01:00:56 | | Teaser: | Drinking straight from the bottle
i don't care anymore
i just wanna hit that wall
be able to pretend i don't exist
forget that my heart is still beating
i'm torn between reality and d ... |
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| | Titel: | A match | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-09-14 18:04:35 | | Teaser: | A match burning
a flame flickering
wood turning black
a fire slowly dying
a cloud of smoke
a light so bright
a warmth so hot
this all reminds me
too much
of the one
i w ... |
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| | Titel: | Color me blind | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-09-14 17:40:28 | | Teaser: | Powdered blue
mixed with white
hope is so light
love is so golden
and bright is happiness
rage resembles a burning fire
sadness is a mere gray
and emptiness is the darkest black ... |
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| | Titel: | A blind man's tear | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-09-13 01:11:23 | | Teaser: | If ever a tear
left the colorful ocean
of the blind man's eyes
and landed as a drop
on the cold surface
of the endless sea
the waves would rise
and meet the sky
before bowing ... |
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| | Titel: | Infinite moments | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-09-13 00:00:30 | | Teaser: | Infinite moments
in which desperate souls
are bared to the world |
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| | Titel: | Angel | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-08-12 22:28:53 | | Teaser: | There was a fire
burning deep inside of her
and there was a river
flowing from her eyes
and her flesh parted
like the red sea once did
and you could easily mistake the color
for ... |
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| | Titel: | Just to make sure | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-08-11 18:07:06 | | Teaser: | I'll hold my breath
just to make sure
that i won't choke on air
i'll cut my wrists
just to make sure
that it won't happen by accident
i'll pull the trigger myself
just t ... |
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| | Titel: | Stubbornness is a johnson trait | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-21 22:09:14 | | Teaser: | "you can't just leave me here jess!" michelle yelled angrily. she was seething her cheeks aflame with a nuance of red that portrayed her burning rage fairly well though jess merely gave her a challe ... |
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| | Titel: | Alone | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-20 08:45:32 | | Teaser: | "camilla please!" selena begged her voice was breaking just a little as she spoke her eyes filling with tears that she refused to let fall. "don't marry him." she pleaded as she watched her friend's ... |
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| | Titel: | Losing my mind | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-19 06:03:07 | | Teaser: | Was i losing my mind
going back and forth
in an attempt
to sort out this mess that i created
am i losing myself
trying to find a solution
to a problem that might not even exist
perhaps i ... |
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| | Titel: | Alive | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-18 21:55:06 | | Teaser: | Every broken moment
every endless dream
every made up reality
to keep your sanity
alive
for just a little while longer
every second chance
every day spent alone
every pleading word
to mak ... |
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| | Titel: | Every broken poet | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-18 21:52:53 | | Teaser: | Every broken poet
with his broken words
has a rope
to either cling to
in order to stay alive
or wrap around his neck
in order to find peace |
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| | Titel: | Questions | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-18 02:38:49 | | Teaser: | Did you ever question your sanity
or perhaps the lack of it
and did you ever wonder if life would have been better
if you had never been born
did your mind ever wonder
and take you to place ... |
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| | Titel: | A moment | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-18 02:29:55 | | Teaser: | A moment without breathing
a moment without air
a moment where i can just be
without questioning my existence
a moment of pure terror
and the release that follows the emotion
a mom ... |
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| | Titel: | There came a time | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-17 19:21:00 | | Teaser: | A little scared boy
clinging to the hem
of his mother's skirt
he never really did grow up
the urge to be held
to cling onto
the only sort of safety
and protection he felt
nev ... |
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| | Titel: | A time | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-17 19:17:17 | | Teaser: | Yes in fact
there did exist a time
where people weren't unkind
and the world wasn't blind
there was indeed a time
though now far away
when hate had a different meaning
and love ... |
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| | Titel: | Time passed | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-17 03:33:11 | | Teaser: | How did we pass time
as we watched hearts fall in line
and stars collide
and the night sky explode in colors
we simply loved so magnificently
and time seemed to fly
without our con ... |
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| | Titel: | Lose myself | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-17 03:31:34 | | Teaser: | Maybe i'm losing my mind
trying to find
who i am
maybe i'll find sanity
in the simple feeling
of having you next to me
maybe another time
when things won't be like this
and i ... |
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| | Titel: | Wilder | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-12 04:39:22 | | Teaser: | Wilder mind
wild as the fire
raging without control
wilder heart
wild as the forest
that grows as it pleases
wilder soul
wild as the wolf
freedom in every movement
wilder
... |
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| | Titel: | Poetry of a man | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-12 04:38:22 | | Teaser: | Poetry
in the heart of a man
words
pumping through his veins
stories
written on his face
and with every movement
he shares
these special feelings
times
memories
stor ... |
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| | Titel: | Madman | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-12 04:36:57 | | Teaser: | Madman
you with the mouth
that blabbers when you speak
and your body
the one that constantly moves
shakes turns twists around
madman
madman
is it sanity you need?
madman
... |
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| | Titel: | Water | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-12 04:33:45 | | Teaser: | Your body is beautiful
like snow glistening
your mind is incredible
like glinting ice crystals
your heart is magnificent
like the ocean
and you as a whole is perfect
like mountains of new fal ... |
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| | Titel: | Feel something | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-12 04:31:17 | | Teaser: | Twist the knife
the one in my back
twist it slowly
so i can feel something again
shot me again
send another shot towards my heart
penetrate it with another bullet
so i can feel something ag ... |
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| | Titel: | Broken down | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-07-12 04:30:14 | | Teaser: | You feel
broken down
like this will be the end
and he will leave
without a single goodbye
not as much as a
'i love you'
not even as much as a
single wave
left broken down
... |
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| | Titel: | Fall or fly | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-05-27 16:13:43 | | Teaser: | The edge of the roof. i'm standing here again. it is such a familiar place. i've been here many times before and every time i come up here i think 'this is the last time i will stand here.' and then ... |
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| | Titel: | A world full of love | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-05-20 04:19:39 | | Teaser: | I walked into the cafe nothing was out of the ordinary. it was like it always was. it was hot inside the air smelled like fresh coffee and a mix of different teas. it was quiet inside only a few peo ... |
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| | Titel: | Outrunning | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-05-20 00:49:13 | | Teaser: | 'maybe i can outrun it.' i thought as i started running feeling my heart speed up as my breathing grew laboured and my body quickly grew tired not used to moving at such a speed for such a long time ... |
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| | Titel: | The brightest lights | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-05-19 04:49:43 | | Teaser: | My mind flooded by voices from the monsters that hide in the shadows that the light she casts make. the light that makes it all seem so good cast a shadow so dark and cold that demons deem it a perf ... |
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| | Titel: | Crumbling angels | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-05-18 23:28:43 | | Teaser: | Maybe you would let go turn around and walk away if i promised to follow you. if i promised to never leave and stay with you until the end of time. our time. would you then go? would you leave this ... |
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| | Titel: | I remember | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-05-14 04:24:40 | | Teaser: | There's not enough time. not enough time to do what is needed. to say what is needed. i remember earlier. when you left. i remember thinking 'what if something were to happen. what if she never come ... |
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| | Titel: | Quiet | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-16 05:27:43 | | Teaser: | Quiet
nothing to be heard
as he kept to himself
and went
to kill thousands of people
quiet
nothing to be heard
as they took his food
and went
leaving him to starve
quiet
nothing to be ... |
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| | Titel: | Blind | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-15 17:13:26 | | Teaser: | Black
it may be all my eyes know
but still
i can see
everything
clearer than most
but i suppose
that is
what being blind
does to you
but just because
you acquire
more knowledge
of peopl ... |
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| | Titel: | A howl a scream | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-15 17:09:40 | | Teaser: | It was faint
a howl
a scream
of hopelessness
one that portrayed
how giving up
giving in
felt like
how stopping
time
stopping
yourself
stopping life
is
a howl
so full of agony
a screa ... |
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| | Titel: | Your future | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-11 08:32:04 | | Teaser: | Let us see
what will be
sometime in the future
it is written in the feature
of a glass ball
it is the writing on the wall
to be read in your palm
it is the calm
before the storm
the cold be ... |
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| | Titel: | Sounds | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-07 21:11:16 | | Teaser: | Dunk dunk
i hear someone else's boots
hitting
the concrete
pavement
a sharp intake of breath
a slow exhale
zip
jacket off
thud
and it land on the ground
an exclaim
and i'm pushed
up aga ... |
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| | Titel: | Stop | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-07 20:27:28 | | Teaser: | Stop
just stop
stop with the apologies
stop trying to make it right
stop just stop
it won't change
anything
you will still be you
that won't change
don't hate you
it's not your fault
just ... |
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| | Titel: | Maybe i will | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-05 19:20:50 | | Teaser: | Maybe that
maybe this
maybe
i will find bliss
eenie
meenie
miney
mo
maybe
i will go
maybe
i will walk
straight into
the arms of my demons
and let them
lead me
to a place
far fro ... |
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| | Titel: | Life wasted | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-05 19:15:21 | | Teaser: | A life
wasted
sanity shredded
to pieces
happiness burned
to ashes
love thrown
away into the void
and then
what good is left
to live off of? |
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| | Titel: | As the bond breaks | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-01 08:59:18 | | Teaser: | As the bond breaks
and everything starts unraveling
all of your secrets
my secrets
our secrets
are spilled
exposed for everyone to see
as the bond breaks
and everything comes undone
you giv ... |
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| | Titel: | Alive | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-01 05:24:08 | | Teaser: | My breathing sounded so loud in my ears
my heartbeat sounded like thunder
my blood whizzed in my ears sounding like whole rivers
my skin so sensitive that the normally perfectly temperate air fel ... |
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| | Titel: | I love you | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-04-01 04:57:36 | | Teaser: | I don't know you
but i love you
i'm never gonna talk to you again
but i love you
i will never see you
but i love you
you will never take another breath
but i love you |
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| | Titel: | Drip | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-31 15:04:05 | | Teaser: | Drip
a droplet falls
drip drip
two more follow
drip drip drip drip drip
five more and a puddle slowly starts to form
and they fall
fast and many
like rain
the liquid
ma ... |
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| | Titel: | Dear dad | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-31 15:02:53 | | Teaser: | Dear dad
it was raining today
it reminded me of you
the droplets
that fell
and wet my hair
and the birds
tweeting and shaking
off the clear liquid
it reminded me
of how much you loved
the ... |
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| | Titel: | Fire fire | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-23 19:38:16 | | Teaser: | Fire fire
burn me with your flames
fire fire
pain me deeply
fire fire
scar my skin
fire fire
turn me into ashes
fire fire
destroy me
fire fire
kill my memory
fire fire
make ... |
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| | Titel: | Prayer | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-23 15:31:29 | | Teaser: | Cutting slicing
breaking crying
late nights
filled with pain
reality
and insanity
i pray to god
and hope
for better times
free me
from this
darkness
salvage me
from this
darkness
rele ... |
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| | Titel: | Shouldn't have told | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-22 15:34:18 | | Teaser: | I told you i cut
and you deemed me an attention seeker
i told you i wasn't eating
and you deemed me too skinny
i told you i'm depressed
and you deemed me an emo
i told you i'm gay
and y ... |
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| | Titel: | A little messy | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-22 15:20:00 | | Teaser: | Life gets a little messy sometimes
at least that's what the book of quotes
my sister gave to me says
i disagree
life doesn't just get a 'little messy'
it gets completely chaotic
and even then ... |
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| | Titel: | Deal with the devil | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-22 15:11:46 | | Teaser: | If you make a deal with the devil
you sign in blood
and not only that
but you pay in blood
and love
and happiness
and everything good
he takes it all for that is his price
and he leaves pure ... |
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| | Titel: | Her fault | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-22 08:14:40 | | Teaser: | Cherry lips
she strips
unwillingly she sheds her clothes
and she knows
god does she know
that this will hurt and time will go by slow
and they aren't sober
god she wishes it would soon be ove ... |
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| | Titel: | Suicide note | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-22 08:10:58 | | Teaser: | I'm not sorry
i don't regret my decision
i would not have changed a thing even if i could
you should not be sorry either
you should not regret anything
you couldn't have changed the outcome no ... |
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| | Titel: | Pure insanity | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-21 13:15:49 | | Teaser: | I had gotten an assignment
'describe humanity'
and i thought about it
i thought that
even the longest essay wouldn't be able to explain
humanity in all its complexion
so i went in the opposite ... |
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| | Titel: | Madness | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-21 05:19:08 | | Teaser: | And they loved
and they lost
and they lost
and they loved
for life is not meant to be
without losing love
and loving someone lost
so sad that is
so sad
it truly is sad
that life is made so ... |
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| | Titel: | A child's imagination | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-19 19:17:01 | | Teaser: | Stories come to life
with the help of children's imagination
the stories become real
the character breathe life
their story doesn't end
just because the book does
a child's fantasy brought lif ... |
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| | Titel: | Goblet | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-19 16:17:59 | | Teaser: | With a flick of her wrist
she bleed crimson
drop after drop
all collected in one big black goblet
she was just waiting
for the day that the goblet
could hold no more crimson blood ... |
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| | Titel: | Naked mind | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-19 15:27:36 | | Teaser: | The honest beauty
of a naked mind
exposed for the world to see
vulnerable in all it's insanity
raw and pure emotions
innocent thoughts
and parts black as night
wonderfully messy
gorgeously c ... |
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| | Titel: | Fly | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-19 13:39:49 | | Teaser: | What do you think it's like
to fly for the first time
to touch the clouds
and spread your wings
feel the winds lift you up into the sky
will i feel terrified
or will i feel invinci ... |
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| | Titel: | Poison | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-18 20:42:16 | | Teaser: | I'm sorry for breaking your heart
it was not that i wanted to
it was that i needed to
letting you go
breaking your heart
breaking my own
it wasn't what i wanted
but i was
i am
poison
and y ... |
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| | Titel: | Brightest light | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-18 20:28:49 | | Teaser: | You were the brightest light
you would hold my hand if i was scared
you would care for me if i was sick
you would say loving words when i was sad
you would assure me when i was in doubt
you wer ... |
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| | Titel: | Paintings | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-17 06:46:05 | | Teaser: | I could paint you a picture
oh so beautiful
with no colors at all
i could paint it only with bits and pieces
of memories and history
a splash of red from my loving heart
black from my broken s ... |
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| | Titel: | Capture this | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-17 06:11:29 | | Teaser: | Capture this
this moment of bliss
capture this
this moment of happiness
capture this
our whole relationship
and everything about it
capture this
a flawless time
just you and i
capture this ... |
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| | Titel: | Mine. theirs. who's? | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-17 05:25:01 | | Teaser: | I'm just wondering
if my demons are real
maybe they aren't dreams
or figements of my imagination
rather i theirs
maybe i'm a dream
a figment of an insane imagination
created to ... |
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| | Titel: | Last i see | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-17 01:36:46 | | Teaser: | I looked down and i saw
my hand
my sleee
the faded scars on my arms
my painted nails
a little scracth from somewhere
i saw the gravel from the parks path
and a little grass
i ... |
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| | Titel: | Silk | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-17 00:34:43 | | Teaser: | You didn't rip me apart at the seams
though you might as well had
you took your time
clipping string after string
making sure there where no loose ends
that the ties where knotted tight
two pi ... |
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| | Titel: | Madness | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-16 23:57:41 | | Teaser: | The madness feeds off of my soul
that is black as night drawn with coal
it eats me alive
the madness it thrive
it tears me into bits and pieces
slowly my sanity ceases
my sanity ev ... |
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| | Titel: | Dreams | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-16 21:47:43 | | Teaser: | Dreaming of this and that
and a mad man with a hat
stories and fairy tales
funny people with happy endings
is what my dreams consist of
dreaming of a cat with a big smile
and a ... |
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| | Titel: | A cat | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-16 04:01:45 | | Teaser: | A scratch
a hiss
a scared reaction
an angry act
sound like someone
describing a cat
attacking it's owner
it is such a shame
that the cat is not
the attacker
but it's ow ... |
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| | Titel: | Life | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-16 03:49:39 | | Teaser: | I watched.
i sat in the window
resting my forehead against the cold glass pane.
and i watched.
the plants.
the trees.
the people.
and so much more.
plants grew
lived and withered away.
tre ... |
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| | Titel: | Night of love | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-16 01:50:55 | | Teaser: | I will erase every trace
of tear tracks on your face
i will dry your eyes
and calm your cries
i will hold you tight
all throughout the night
i will stroke your hair
and show you i care
... |
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| | Titel: | Reality and dreams | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 23:24:05 | | Teaser: | In reality my
mirrors crack
as i punch them in anger
others trust shatters
as they find out my secrets
friendships break
as the cause of my actions
in my dreams
mirrors are cleaned
becaus ... |
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| | Titel: | Moon light | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 20:02:58 | | Teaser: | In the light
of the silver ball
called the moon
and the flecks of white
called constellations
she picked up
her beloved knife
and enchanted she
watched the light
of the black night
reflect ... |
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| | Titel: | Home is where... | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 18:19:17 | | Teaser: | There is many theories as to
what and where a home is
i know it isn't
where the hugs are
or my pillow
or my parents
or my bed
or where my hearts is
i know it is where your heart is |
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| | Titel: | Glass shards | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 07:49:04 | | Teaser: | I threw a vase
it smashed next to
your head
into a million tiny
glass shards
raining down making
small clinking
and trinkling sounds
on their way down
sparkling like glitt ... |
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| | Titel: | The sun and the moon | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 07:24:45 | | Teaser: | The sun goes down
i'm sitting there
in the darkening forest
surrounded by tall trees
watching
waiting
expecting
knowing
the magic of the burning
and the fire being extinguished
by the sea
... |
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| | Titel: | A thousand | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 06:24:06 | | Teaser: | Nine hundred and ninety-six
nine hundred and ninety-seven
nine hundred and ninety-eight
nine hundred and ninety-nine
a thousand.
a thousand times have i
hurt myself
wanted to die
taken a s ... |
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| | Titel: | Pumping blood | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 05:54:14 | | Teaser: | My heart is pumping blood
throughtout my body
through my veins
red thick crimson liquid
so lovely it is
to feel my pulse slow
and see the blood bead
and form small crimson pearls
before slow ... |
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| | Titel: | Scared or terrified | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 05:11:16 | | Teaser: | I'm scared to be normal
and i'm terrified to be crazy
i'm scared of dying
and i'm terrified to live
i'm scared to be alone
and i'm terrified to have company
i'm scared not to tell anyone
and ... |
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| | Titel: | Thoughts | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 04:58:07 | | Teaser: | It's a shame that i myself
understand my mind the best
in the dark and silent night
soon the clock will strike five
and still insomnia keeps me awake
though my thoughts alone is enoug ... |
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| | Titel: | Cold as ice | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 04:37:37 | | Teaser: | Your heart is cold as ice
your words stabbing at my heart like icicles
your eyes the same color as melted ice
your smile white like the purest snow
your personality like ice crystals one of a ki ... |
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| | Titel: | Broken hearts and melted steel | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 04:17:12 | | Teaser: | You warmed my heart
made it soft
made it bendable
and made it breakable
when you broke it
it was like you
threw water on our fire
our burning love and desire
my heart cooled
it became stron ... |
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| | Titel: | Scared of the mirror | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-15 04:03:38 | | Teaser: | Mirrors scare me
and i'm not talking about being scared of
bloody mary
i'm not scared
of seeing a murderer either
and i'm not scared
of seeing my own reflection either
i'm scared of looking i ... |
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| | Titel: | Are you okay | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 20:46:31 | | Teaser: | Are you okay
when you're far away
lost in dreams
and hopes
that a heavenly world
would adopt your tired soul
and a better place
would adopt the rest
of these people
the people who fight
da ... |
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| | Titel: | Tik. tak. tok. | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 18:27:00 | | Teaser: | Falling asleep
and waking up
all she could hear was
tik. tak. tok.
the clock counted;
seconds. minutes.
and hours.
she counted;
day. weeks. months.
and years.
nothing was seen
in the blin ... |
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| | Titel: | Droplets | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 18:25:40 | | Teaser: | Droplets of clear liquid
drip
driip
driiiiip
the sound bouncing off
of the walls of an empty heart
making the bottom of the void
look glossy
making it slippery
droplets of red ... |
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| | Titel: | One shove, two shoves, three... | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 18:24:39 | | Teaser: | One shove for cheating on me
two shoves for breaking my heart
three shoves for lying
four shoves for not caring
five shoves for letting you in again
six shoves for doing it all over again
and ... |
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| | Titel: | Are you okay? | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 18:23:50 | | Teaser: | You asked me if i was okay
i told you it was nothing and turned the question around
you started talking and never even noticed my lie
it would have made me sad
if i hadn't been so used to it by ... |
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| | Titel: | Cuts and scars | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 18:23:13 | | Teaser: | Stripes and lines
horizontal and vertical
pink and white
old and new
arms and thighs
mine and others
accident and purpose
hurt and anger
metal and fire
cuts and scars |
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| | Titel: | Deceiving | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 05:53:20 | | Teaser: | A smile that can light up the room
eyes chocolate colored that are more capturing then an eclipse
skin ivory white and untainted
hair charcoal black and silky smooth
a body like a goddess
and a ... |
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| | Titel: | A lovely night | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 05:43:18 | | Teaser: | A falling leaf
a shooting star
sparkling water
magic in the air
forest green eyes
a full smile
music playing
conversation flowing
the night barely just begun
and still must soon come to an ... |
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| | Titel: | If you knew | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 01:51:28 | | Teaser: | If you knew that you are the reason
behind all of this.
every fading scar and every bleeding cut.
would you regret it?
would you take it back.
your actions your words.
would you take them back ... |
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| | Titel: | Remember? | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-14 00:11:29 | | Teaser: | Remember when we met?
remember when you took me out on our first date?
remember when you kissed me goodnight?
remember when you asked me to be your girlfriend?
remember when you introduc ... |
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| | Titel: | A note | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-13 18:05:21 | | Teaser: | I got a note today.
i know it was from you.
'i do regret ending our
love story so soon.'
i got a second note today.
it was also from you.
'love does blind but i
saw everything clearer
when ... |
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| | Titel: | Did you feel anything? | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-13 04:45:59 | | Teaser: | Did you feel anything when you broke my heart?
did you feel anything when i begged you to put it back together?
did you feel anything when i called you up at night drunk?
did you feel anyth ... |
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| | Titel: | True colors | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-13 04:10:15 | | Teaser: | Who are you
when you're not
with me?
are you still;
gentle,
caring,
sweet,
loving,
sarcastic,
funny and so on?
or do you
completely change?
become someone
else ... |
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| | Titel: | As usual | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-13 04:09:37 | | Teaser: | 03:41 a.m.
can't sleep. as usual.
04:12 a.m.
still can't sleep. as usual.
06:27 a.m.
the start of a new day. i didn't sleep. as usual.
07:45 a.m.
on my way to school. skipped br ... |
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| | Titel: | Lovers | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-13 01:57:46 | | Teaser: | It's incredible
gorgeous
underscribable
it's the end
and the beggining
sinking in the
horizon
slowly
it dies to give
life to it's
lover
the moon
slowly
the wat ... |
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| | Titel: | Sunset | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-13 01:31:41 | | Teaser: | Scarlet. deep red. the color of love and desire.
ube. dark purple. the color of mystery and magic.
navy. dark blue. the color of loyalty and trust.
sky blue. light blue. the color of sereni ... |
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| | Titel: | Ink | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-12 13:30:03 | | Teaser: | I like to draw life
i use ink
because it reminds me
of how dark life
really is
i feel like i'm drowning
in ink or well thoughts
though they might aswell
have been ink
beca ... |
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| | Titel: | Compass | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-10 18:34:00 | | Teaser: | Life is like a maze.
a big, complicated, messy maze.
now imagine this;
you're born in one end.
the start.
and you're life is all about
reaching the other end.
the end.
you're ... |
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| | Titel: | A story told - chapter 2 | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-10 02:43:59 | | Teaser: | Sam had stopped her story, swallowing, her eyes full of a bittersweet happiness as the memories overwhelmed her. the priest laid a comforting hand on her shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze, making ... |
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| | Titel: | A story told - chapter 1 | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-06 21:36:28 | | Teaser: | Every day for twelve months the young priest at markus church in the depths of usa had watched a young brunette, brown eyed woman walk from down the long gravel road into the graveyard with a bouque ... |
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| | Titel: | I am crazy | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-03-06 03:51:19 | | Teaser: | "how was your day?" she asked her familiar piercing blue eyes studying me carefully taking in every movement of my body trying to figure out exactly what i felt what problems it caused and how she c ... |
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| | Titel: | Alone | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-26 12:53:16 | | Teaser: | Running through a battle zone
no protection all alone
feeling numb as my body becomes weak
running from my demons
no one has come to show me the way home
fighting here all by myself
i'm search ... |
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| | Titel: | Illusion | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-20 02:43:30 | | Teaser: | I find it weird how something
so opposite so dark so poisonous
so tainted can disappear into
something so pure so innocent
without a trace
and give the illusion that it's
never even there. |
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| | Titel: | Beauty | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-20 02:40:13 | | Teaser: | Today i was asked to judge
judge between two women
and chose who i thought
looked the most beautiful
and even though i shouldn't have
i judged the women
i knew nothing about them
nothing bu ... |
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| | Titel: | Speculations | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-19 11:18:21 | | Teaser: | I don't have any friends
and yet she is always there
always ready to talk even
though she isn't real
or maybe she is
maybe she isn't just a
figment of my imagination
on lonely n ... |
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| | Titel: | My love | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-19 07:22:45 | | Teaser: | My love.
because of you
i laughed a little harder
cried a little less
and smile a whole lot more.
i still miss you you know.
every time i think of you
my thoughts automatically
goes back to ... |
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| | Titel: | I can't see | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-19 07:10:59 | | Teaser: | I scream
the familiar words
taste bitter in my
mouth as i try to
remember what they mean
try to remember why
i chose those words
to begin with
why i scream
'i can't see!' each
and every t ... |
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| | Titel: | Maybe | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-19 06:55:30 | | Teaser: | Maybe i'm insane
or maybe i'm normal
maybe the things
the people
the world that surrounds me
is insane.
maybe i'm crazy
because i'm addicted to
something that removes
the internal pain
b ... |
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| | Titel: | The lost cause: chapter 2 | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-15 17:02:32 | | Teaser: | "you know why you are called a lost cause right?" my dad asked which confused me he knew i know all there is to know about lost causes.
"of course i do it's because a creature born without either ... |
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| | Titel: | Daily routine | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-14 01:47:50 | | Teaser: | By 12 p.m.
she pretends to eat while joking with her friends.
by 3 p.m.
she smiles and acts like everything is perfect.
by 6 p.m.
she tells her family she ate a big lunch and excuses hersel ... |
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| | Titel: | As time went on | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-13 11:38:10 | | Teaser: | When she was younger
she wrote poems.
poems of love hope and happy endings.
as time went on
they changed
morphed into something else.
into poems of pain tears and dark times.
as time went ... |
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| | Titel: | Coffee | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-13 02:24:30 | | Teaser: | You never liked coffee
to bitter you'd say
you'd always pour tons of sugar
and milk in it then offer me some
because 'a person so sweet
'shouldn't be exposed to something so bitter'
i'd always ... |
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| | Titel: | I've got so much | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-12 23:39:41 | | Teaser: | I've got bite marks on my tongue from the things i never said
i've got scars on my arms and legs from the feelings i never shared
i've got tear tracks on my face from the times i cried myself to s ... |
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| | Titel: | So familiar | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-12 22:49:26 | | Teaser: | The familiar sting as the water turns red
the familiar sight of my own crimson blood
the familiar feeling of running my fingers over my scars
the familiar sensation of breaking my own skin
the f ... |
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| | Titel: | I loved her | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-09 23:13:09 | | Teaser: | 8 p.m. i fell harder for her like i had done every single day prior to this since the day i met her. i loved her.
9 p.m. her kiss began to taste like vodka even when she hadn't been drinking. but ... |
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| | Titel: | The lost cause: chapter 1 | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-09 15:37:20 | | Teaser: | Avery's pov
a pained groan escaped my lips as i woke and rolled over onto my left side immediately remembering the big werewolf bite that took up my right side. as i slowly tried standing up a sc ... |
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| | Titel: | Little girl | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-07 23:22:18 | | Teaser: | Little girl dreams never last
little girl childhood goes by so fast
little girl you look so happy
little girl when did your live get so crappy
little girl i miss you
little girl if only you kne ... |
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| | Titel: | I scream | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-07 23:19:46 | | Teaser: | I scream till my voice gives out
till my lungs cave in
till my heart beats like drums
till the blood sound in my ears
till the silence afterwards makes me think i went deaf
'cause i'm so used t ... |
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| | Titel: | Dear no one - letter 4 | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-02-05 21:42:46 | | Teaser: | Dear no one
a friend of mine just committed suicide and when people ask me how i feel i just say 'considering the circumstances i'm doing okay' which is a huge lie. really i feel the need to scre ... |
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| | Titel: | Memories | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-28 15:08:09 | | Teaser: | Det korte øjeblik når du lige er vågnet hvor dit hoved er tomt for tanker og følelser alting er glemt du ved ikke engng hvem du selv er. det korte øjeblik har jeg aldrig vædsat før jeg har en ... |
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| | Titel: | A proper goodbye inês | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-21 03:31:48 | | Teaser: | ~my dear beautiful inês
i had a long letter written for you several actually but i haven't saved them they're gone because you life wasn't perfect so why should your goodbye be?
the last thin ... |
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| | Titel: | My life: the park | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-12 16:00:33 | | Teaser: | Even though i'm only fifteen and i'm actually supposed to finish in three years time this is my last year of highschool. no i'm not going to drop out i'm just three years ahead so this will be my la ... |
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| | Titel: | My life: the story starts here | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-09 19:23:45 | | Teaser: | Tired i close my eyes
tired i lay awake all night
tired i cry my eyes out
tired i stumble downstairs
tired
tired
tired
everything i do these days i do tired i'm so over feeling tired all the ... |
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| | Titel: | My life: welcome to my hell | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-09 01:03:45 | | Teaser: | My story starts at the age of three. well maybe it should actually start the day i was born but for that to happen i'm gonna have to tell you what others have told me happened in my early years and. ... |
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| | Titel: | Colours | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-09 00:21:06 | | Teaser: | If we were colours
you would be gold
and i would be black
and like the colour
i infect everyone with my darkness
my negativity
my hopelessness
i make them hate me
hate themselves
hate every ... |
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| | Titel: | Letter to a loved one | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-08 23:01:39 | | Teaser: | My love,
it would kill me if you died selfish i know, but i can't help it. you're too important to lose you have yet to set your mark on the world yet to live. and you're already ready to die. wh ... |
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| | Titel: | Letter to a lost love | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-08 22:31:56 | | Teaser: | My darling,
it weren't supposed to end like this. you weren't supposed to die yet to die like this to give up on life give up on your family your friends... give up on me. now i'm left here all a ... |
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| | Titel: | This is me | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-05 17:59:30 | | Teaser: | The smell of burnt skin
the sound of piercing screams
the look of aggravating pain
the smell of dried blood
the sound of pained whimpers
the look of hopelessness
this is what i smell when my e ... |
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| | Titel: | Unspoken words | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2015-01-02 19:02:37 | | Teaser: | Friend: "how are you?"
me: "perfect!" 'suicidal'
friend: "are you okay?"
me: "yeah." 'help!'
friend: "what's wrong?"
me: "nothing." 'everything!'
friend: "sorry i didn't help you."
me: ... |
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| | Titel: | Happy times | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-31 18:56:33 | | Teaser: | Gone is all the pain,
flushed away by the rain.
followed by the life and joy,
her smile no longer a decoy.
happy new year! |
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| | Titel: | There was a girl | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-22 00:04:08 | | Teaser: | There was a little girl her eyes so bright
they shone like the stars so full of light
she heard the reporter talk about death
she ran so fast soon out of breath
daddy! daddy! she said
how's it ... |
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| | Titel: | Blade | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-21 23:12:16 | | Teaser: | I slammed the door
tears on my face
i quickly locked it
turned up the music
sank too the ground
i took a shaky breath
i rose to my feet
in search of relieve
i found my razor
my beloved blad ... |
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| | Titel: | A fall of death | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-21 22:59:26 | | Teaser: | Burnt skin was all i smelled
filling my nostrils with the stench
as i woke from my unconscious state
my arms red bloody and burned
marked forever
the wounds stung
burnt skin and ashes stuck to ... |
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| | Titel: | Voices | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-21 11:37:39 | | Teaser: | The voices ever so loud
they scream they yell they shout
one more time and we will leave
one more time and you will feel relieve
but like everything else they say it's a lie
i'm just waiting fo ... |
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| | Titel: | Battle | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-21 11:34:24 | | Teaser: | I feel the cold metal
in the palm of my hand
pressing against my skin
i refuse to drag it
i'm fighting the never ending battle
the battle against myself
the battle that's making me question my ... |
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| | Titel: | A unfinished story | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-21 11:21:17 | | Teaser: | She went to write a poem
with blood stained hands
her fingers where shaking
leading the pen in dance
words formed in her head
'flowers my darling'
a poem of love and hope filled the lines
'in ... |
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| | Titel: | Love | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-21 11:08:25 | | Teaser: | Love
such a simple yet powerful word
enough to save someone
but also enough to crush them
save that word that feeling
to only the worthy
because
love is powerful
love is purity
love is cla ... |
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| | Titel: | Mind battle | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-21 10:46:53 | | Teaser: | In my mind is a battle
on my body is the wounds
the scars of life
and the scars of death
people tell me
'i know you can win!'
and i know that too
'cause in this fight
i am both evil and good |
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| | Titel: | Embracing death | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-20 16:17:38 | | Teaser: | "i have embraced death." she said the look in her eyes dull and lifeless contradicting the way her smile lit up the room.
"i don't understand." i said my voice barely above a whisper as a single ... |
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| | Titel: | Eyes of fire | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-19 23:31:17 | | Teaser: | His cold ice blue eyes
filled with something resembling fire
filled with hope and promises
with everything and nothing
fading like smoke
taken by a breeze
i stood tears staining my cheeks
all ... |
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| | Titel: | Life is deceptive | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-19 23:18:35 | | Teaser: | "i find it deceptive."
"what are you talking about?"
"life of course."
"how can life be deceptive?"
"life... is a lie. a beautiful one but never the less a lie. in reality the oh so 'bea ... |
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| | Titel: | Dear no one - letter 3 | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-15 04:31:17 | | Teaser: | Dear no one
i was thinking about how to tell my family or well more like just my brothers girlfriend everything. the whole 'i'm gay!' thing plus the cutting purging etc. i would love to be able t ... |
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| | Titel: | The battle of an innocent | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-12 01:14:43 | | Teaser: | "they say that when a child is born," his smooth voice rang through my thoughts. "when a child is born for a brief amount of time they still remember the life they lived before this one. that they a ... |
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| | Titel: | Smoke and memories | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-12 00:14:23 | | Teaser: | Anxiously i watch the clock
the hours ticking by slowly
waiting for the clock to strike twelve
now is the time for sleeping
but i use it to
cut scream purge cry and feel guilty
it's just one d ... |
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| | Titel: | Dear no one - letter 2 | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-03 02:06:35 | | Teaser: | Dear no one
alot of people have told that it's 'okay.' and ''it's gonna get better.' they also promised to help. but what is help? i know what help is. it's to love someone uncondionally and to b ... |
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| | Titel: | Dear no one - letter 1 | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-03 00:08:56 | | Teaser: | Dear no one
i give people like me great advice. like 'the numbers on a scale don't defy you.' and 'you are so much more than any mirror could ever show.' but myself? i don't believe it. and i don ... |
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| | Titel: | A swan | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-02 23:11:02 | | Teaser: | A swan is beautiful graceful the picture of purity and beauty
but when you think about it in the start when they hatch
ppeople think of them as ugly clumsy and the perfect picture of impureness
r ... |
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| | Titel: | If you knew | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-02 01:57:45 | | Teaser: | We both got the same heartbeat
but mine is falling behind
you don't know
but in the shadows
i cry scream and cut
the relief fills me
as the blood leaves me
if you knew you were the reason
yo ... |
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| | Titel: | I found you | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-02 01:55:11 | | Teaser: | You showed me your love
you took my hand and lifted me above
all the suffer and pain
gone the second i see you
people have tried to chain me
but always you've come and set me free
i was livi ... |
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| | Titel: | A girl i've never met | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-02 01:52:17 | | Teaser: | I'm missing a person i've never met
how is that possible?
i wish i knew
but i don't
i only know i need her
i know she's out there
probaly feeling as lost as me
so i need your help
tell her i ... |
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| | Titel: | The beautiful paintings | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-02 01:43:22 | | Teaser: | "so... why don't you live alone? i mean you are 25 after all."
"my mother don't trust me."
"i don't understand. you're one of the most responsible 20 somethings i know."
"it's not that she ... |
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| | Titel: | Goodnight from above | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-02 01:36:55 | | Teaser: | The clock strikes twelve
the day is over
night is starting
normal people would sleep
but i won't
not tonight not ever again
'cause i'm haunted
every minute of every day
the voices driving me ... |
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| | Titel: | Family in the stars | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 18:57:11 | | Teaser: | This year is good
or atleast so i was told
of all the lies
this was the biggest
everything went downhill
no one keft to celebrate with
no family to call my own
i'm standing all alone
here on ... |
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| | Titel: | Demons everywhere | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 18:41:12 | | Teaser: | Demons in my head,
demons in my bed.
demons in the night,
demons in the light.
demons in my lies,
demons kill people like flies. |
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| | Titel: | Jeg maler | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 16:54:29 | | Teaser: | "hvorfor bor du ikke alene?"
"det må jeg ikke for min mor."
"men du er 24 du bestemmer da selv?"
"jeg må ikke fordi jeg maler."
"og hvad er der galt med at male?"
"jeg maler uden pe ... |
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| | Titel: | Mary had a little lamb | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 12:39:25 | | Teaser: | Mary had a little lamb,
flooding in a dam.
the dam was fillede with mary's blood,
mixed with the forrest mud.
mary had a secret,
and she did it quite frequent.
red from her arm bled,
finally ... |
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| | Titel: | The voices(inner demons) | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 01:38:43 | | Teaser: | "i think they are trying to kill me."
"who are?"
"the voices of course."
"and they are?"
"well it's kind of hard to explain. but i guess you could say they are a dark side of yourself no ... |
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| | Titel: | I don't believe you | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 00:45:38 | | Teaser: | I'm always the on telling others
"my love for you is beyond infinity"
i make sure they know
just how much i love them
but when they say it back
i don't believe them
i think it's a lie
i would ... |
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| | Titel: | So... she did | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 00:28:06 | | Teaser: | She sat in her class
watching the time tick by slowly
biting her nails
trying to calm down
walking down the hall
taking al the hits and the blows
she ran home
and locked herself in her room
... |
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| | Titel: | A blissful lie | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 00:19:15 | | Teaser: | I met you in the dark december night
dancing in the moonlight
i fell in love
in a night filled with passion
and to my favorite song
your eyes became red
the night only a blissful lie
i fell t ... |
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| | Titel: | I lie alone | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-12-01 00:09:13 | | Teaser: | I've never met you
but i still see you in my dreams
my love for you is deep
all i see is green eyes
and skin as white as snow
as i fall into a blissful sleep
my passion for you burning
my nee ... |
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| | Titel: | Eenie meenie miney mo | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-30 23:21:29 | | Teaser: | Eenie meenie miney mo
i tie a rope around my throat
i tie it tight
and hang it from ceiling height
i place a chair
and say one last prayer
i stand up high
all you ever did was lie
the chair ... |
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| | Titel: | My kitten | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-30 23:09:14 | | Teaser: | I have a kitten
she is silver with red stribes
she is one out of many
in my silver collection
she likes to bite
she likes to scratch
she likes the stribes
i paint on her
she is harmless
but ... |
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| | Titel: | På grund af dig | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-29 15:06:12 | | Teaser: | Du skubber hende rundt
og river hendes hår
får hende til at synke
i en verden af fortvivlelse
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| | Titel: | Er det stadig en joke?? | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-29 14:56:47 | | Teaser: | Folk gør grin med selvmord
tror det er en joke
tror folk skærer for opmærksomhed
og sulter for popularitet
men de vidste ikke
at pigen bag dem var bipolar
hun undrede sig over h ... |
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| | Titel: | Den pige jeg var | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-28 23:44:18 | | Teaser: | Jeg vil ønske jeg kunne være hvem jeg engang var
den pige som var glad og løb frit.
den pige som havde lyset alle andre kunne se.
den pige jeg plejede at være... var det virkelig mig? |
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| | Titel: | My dear - a letter of regret | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-20 04:22:39 | | Teaser: | my dear
i feel like i'm going mad. and i fear i won't recover this time. i'm doing the only thing sensible... to me atleast. i ... |
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| | Titel: | Hun vågnede | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-18 08:34:49 | | Teaser: | Hun vågnede i en anden verden end hun var faldet i søvn
hun vågnede i et andet år end hun havde levet
hun vågnede med mennesker hun ikke kendte
hun vågnede med en anden skæbne end før |
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| | Titel: | Min lille fugl | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-18 08:29:36 | | Teaser: | Jeg kender en lille fugl
der hvisker hemmeligheder i mit øre
hun er blå og smuk
siger kun ting jeg vil høre
men jeg ved at min lille fugl
vil flyve langt langt væk
fordi min lille fugl
vi ... |
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| | Titel: | Empty | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-17 00:24:43 | | Teaser: | I dont know. i really dont. right now i'm supposed to be writing how i feel but instead i'm sitting here staring at a blank piece of paper.
my therapist asked me to write how i feel. only problem ... |
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| | Titel: | My nights | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-16 06:44:09 | | Teaser: | All my life even as a child i've always known that the demons aren't under our beds but inside of us. this has been eating me alive since forever and a day. i no longer know how to function normally ... |
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| | Titel: | Når jeg holder op | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-15 21:54:54 | | Teaser: | Nogen gange holder jeg bare op
jeg holder op med at tale
jeg holder op med at spise
jeg holder op med at forsøge
jeg holder op med at leve
når jeg holder op med at tale
tror folk det er pe ... |
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| | Titel: | I aften | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-15 03:45:29 | | Teaser: | I aften vil jeg lege med min pensel
i aften vil jeg male med rød
i aften vil jeg lede efter at sted at græde
et sted at vakse min røde maling af
et sted at gemme min pensel
et sted at flyg ... |
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| | Titel: | The girl in the mirror | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-15 03:31:17 | | Teaser: | I remember what you told me
i hate it when you stand in front of the mirror
cringing at your own reflection
pointing out all of your imperfections
but it's true i'm pathetic i'm weak
i answered ... |
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| | Titel: | The four seasons | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-10 08:12:53 | | Teaser: | I stand and think watching the snow glisten
it's beauty amaze me
wrapping my heart in sadness
wishing to be as pure as snow
i only hope to one day be as beautiful
i shiver feeling the cold br ... |
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| | Titel: | Pigen med de smukke billeder | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-09 22:36:14 | | Teaser: | Hun kan male et smukt billede
men historien har en uventet drejning
hendes pensel er en kniv
og hendes håndled hendes lærred
hun maler hendes smukke billeder
i en blodrød farve
mens hun ... |
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| | Titel: | Min største fejltagelse | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-11-09 07:38:55 | | Teaser: | Jeg sad som så mange andre gange før med en kuglepen i den ene hånd, og et lommetørklæde i den anden. jeg lod tårene løbe frit ned af mine kinder, som jeg kiggede hen på min dør, selv, om j ... |
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| | Titel: | Eyes of pain | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-10 00:56:10 | | Teaser: | It was clear on his face the pain,
though slowly you could se it wane.
i was looking in his eyes,
they where as blue as the skies.
clear as still oceans,
though they where blured by h ... |
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| | Titel: | Deal with the devil | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-10 00:55:15 | | Teaser: | And might i add,
the little chat.
i spoke to the devil,
reached down to his level.
i regret nothing more,
he let me gore.
all the pain,
it had no gain.
the thruth it hurt ... |
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| | Titel: | Painful wisdom | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 08:03:39 | | Teaser: | She fell slow,
until she was laying low.
slowly closing her eyes,
that used to be so wise.
now only full of pain,
as she slowly bled form every single vein. |
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| | Titel: | Loving spell | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 07:58:45 | | Teaser: | It didn't feel safe,
it felt like something chafed.
something deep inside,
had slowly died.
it felt hollow,
full of sorrow.
still her eyes so full of emotions,
watery like l ... |
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| | Titel: | Poisonous love | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 07:52:12 | | Teaser: | It blooms like a flower,
so full off power.
like life itself,
it excel's.
but still it left me empty,
even though i had plenty.
loving you is like slowly tearing myself apart,
b ... |
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| | Titel: | In the dark | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 07:40:18 | | Teaser: | Walking with death,
is alot like taking your last breath.
it's painfull,
but at the same time peacefull.
it's calm but upsetting,
like you don't know where your heading.
like a col ... |
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| | Titel: | Demons | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 07:06:33 | | Teaser: | I wish a hero would come and safe me,
let me live and be free.
like in the books i used to read,
before i finally fled.
now i'm running,
but they are cunning.
no matter what i do,
... |
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| | Titel: | Safe | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 06:54:33 | | Teaser: | I can feel the tears running down my face,
my life is like a big maze.
but when i look at the night sky is see,
you smiling down at me.
and suddenly i feel safe,
i am no longer a waif. |
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| | Titel: | Hopeless love | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 06:53:43 | | Teaser: | My heart beats only for you,
but i am not in your line of view.
beautiful like a god,
but you are a fraud.
you are gone like lightning from a clear sky,
gone without a single bye.
... |
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| | Titel: | Confused | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 06:53:08 | | Teaser: | Everything i am is stressed,
everything i feel is messed.
it's like nothing is conclusive,
it feels so abusive.
but i doesn't matter who,
as long as i get through.
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| | Titel: | Extra shadow | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 06:52:34 | | Teaser: | Every where i look,
in every crook.
i see an extra shadow,
the pain is like an arrow.
as it penetrate my body,
the pain makes everything foggy.
i see him there,
before he vanish ... |
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| | Titel: | Searching | | Forfatter: | BigNerdBeard | | Skrevet: | 2014-08-09 06:51:36 | | Teaser: | Running through a battle zone,
no protection all alone.
feeling numb as my body becomes weak,
running from peak to peak.
no family to call my own,
no friends have shown.
i’m sear ... |
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